Im not complaining, I promise im not! Being a self proclaimed mogul is tough! Where in the hell is your support staff? Uh, hello Cleo that takes money! Where are the graphic teams, the customer service staff? Uh, money! Oh yes that thing, the mighty dollar! The dollar is held tighter than leather gloves in people's hand this day, but why does it seem to slide out of my hand like sand? This blog I am apologizing in advance because this bad boy is going to become a rant, I can see that already. So get in, buckle up and just take the damn ride already. Many sleepless nights and I do mean many come along with the want to do better! I want to do better, I want to live better, I want to eat better, travel better, look better! I don't how ever want to freakin struggle as I attempt to do better! Some of you might say "well without struggle there's no progress" funk that, I know struggle like no bodies business and I am declaring victory over struggling........ The time is here to reap the benefits of sacrifice and struggle. Am I wrong to declare this? I REFUSE TO GO BACK! I say this in the morning, before I go to bed, brushing my teeth, while im working, while im creating. Have you ever felt in your life that there were some things you were just never going to do again. I have several. Live in Sacramento, date a man with locs, wear plastic shoes (except for my plastic chanel flats, I mean come on there hell of fly) eat fast food (lord help me with this one) compromise my feelings for the sake of having a man, fly Delta airlines, pretend to like the sex when in fact I want to throw up, pretend to like your mother, pretend to like your father, pretend to like your sister, ride in a ford focus, ride in a ford focus in the summertime in Sacramento, wear fur boots, bite my tongue when having a heart to heart with a friend. Those are just some of the things I will never go back too! Just for the record I never purchased a ford focus, why did they make this car (lord I am grateful).When I do a job, what ever it is and y'all know that I have a lot of jobs ( got to use all my gifts so that I don't eva eva eva eva eva eva have to go back to Sacramento ). So why is it that people always want to do you wrong. If someone does a job for you and they finish it even if it is done poorly you must pay them, you just don't use them again. Do your research, your bad, sorry! Back to does this get any easier, well let's see! It's 3 am in the morning and I can hear someone hauling stuff from there back yard, sounds like work to me. Did it get easier for them, apparently not. Leaving you with a few qoutes.
Don’t wish it were easier, wish you were better. Don’t wish for fewer problems, wish for more skills. Don’t wish for less challenges, wish for more wisdom.
Earl Shoaf
"Every now and then, when the world sits just right, a gentle breath of heaven fills my soul with delight..." Hazelmarie ‘Mattie’ Elliott
